i went to go see my doctor today and i told him that i haven’t been taking my weekly shot for almost two months now. he asked me why and i told him that it stressed me out too much and i just couldn’t take it anymore.
i know that i shouldn’t have been without it for so long and that i guess i had a long time of weakness, but i’m only human and they’re only so much i can take.
i also know and understand that a lot of other people have it a lot worse. that they get shots everyday and all sorts of other things. though it still doesn’t make it hurt any less…
my doctor told me that though he understands, he still thinks that a moment’s pain once a week is better than going back to the hospital and starting all over complete with all the other horrible medicine. and i do agree, i really do. i want to stay out of there and not go through all that pain and pills all over again.
but it still sucks nonetheless…
anyways, they’ve recalled my injection medicine and hopefully it wont be an injection as well.
my friend angeli intruduced me to this cover when she made mixed cds for our group of friends this one time and i’m totally in love with this song :]
it kind of reminds me of a music box and cute little cartoon bugs having a little barn party under the night sky. haha idk. i just know that this song is always nice to listen to even if i don’t really understand/pay attention to the lyrics c[:
to me, it kind of sounds like the kind of song i’d want to listen to next to a river with fireflies :] or maybe just in my own little world :]
i know that by now, this song has been over played on the radio countless times and i’ve heard it just about countless times and luckily, i still love it like when i first heard it and saw the music video.
the song reminds me so much of high school [[since you spend most of your teenage life there]] and how when you meet someone, the feelings are just like that expressed in the song. ahh young love <3
i miss that. finding a guy and being head over heels in love with him and vice versa and feeling like the world is your oyster. haha i also wish that i had more high school adventures to speak of. going out and around san diego with your friends and that special someone and thier friends. :]
don’t get me wrong, i love my group of gals and i’m so happy that i belong to a group of people i know i can always hang out with and just be happy and enjoy life. but i guess i’m also feeling like i’m tired of being shy and wanting to get me some college friends that we’d still be friends with outside of class.
anyways, i digress, what was i saying? ah yes,
maybe i’m also just searching for that guy to make me feel like i really am living a teenage dream :] i mean, who wouldn’t want that? and also get to sing/share special songs like this with someone who’ll appreciate it and really connect with it like i do.
ever since i’ve joined the online dating community it looks like i’ve gotten a lot of views from chollo, black and military looking types and it’s kinda weird o___o haha
maybe i’m not used to guys taking an interest in me especially since i know that they’re probably a lot of other girls on the same website who look….well, idk, provacative i suppose? i mean it’s the internet and people who are seeking the opposite sex are usually doing some form of “peacocking” [[i can not tell you how many guys i’ve seen with their shirts up or off showing off their body. seen it once, seen it a million times]]. while mine are just me smiling and looking like a good girl.
hmm maybe some guys are just looking for a good girl :/ [[or their pervs which would be automatically deleted if they messege me >:( ]]
this search is getting more and more interesting and it’s going by at a pace that is a lot faster than i’m used to but at least it helps weed out the creeps/jerks early >:|
i’m not sure if it’s the idea of me flirting again or that there’s a guy who thinks i’m cute and starting to like me but i’m starting to like this guy i met on plentyoffish.com and we’ve been txting all day.
i’m still as awkward and get embarassed quite easily like i usually do when a guy would flirt w me but since the context of where i’m meeting these guys have changed, i feel like i have to up my walls and another wall that i haven’t really put up before with guys i like.
o yea, and it does feel kinda weird that most of the guys flirting w me are white lol. so used to filipino guys since that was the kind of boys who liked me in hs. guess my pool of choices [[? idk…]] has expanded after graduation. haha
whenever i hear this song i always ALWAYS see a mini music video or a scene in an anime where it could totally be like where the heroes get a call that they’re needed, change into thier ass kicking gear, get introduced who they are and they’re weapon/special powers and go off to kick evil’s ass >:]
it makes me wanna go back to jr year of high school where we had to do a silent movie for english and do this super hero rock and roll fighting movie.
i’d totally wanna make another movie with my friends just cuz i’m totally in love with this idea and have been thinking about it for like ever!
maybe over one of our enormously long college breaks? ;]
just got done using the sinus rinse and i feel like it only cleared up half of it.
my cousin yvanna recorded the experience and read me the instructions so of course there was laughter abound. i’m sure if there wasn’t already water coming out of my nose there probably would be from all the laughing. lol
the sensation was pretty weird. like when you go swimming adn you get water up your nose only w/o the panic of feeling like you might drown._.
i was also a bit scared of that too. like if she made me laugh too much i might inhale some of the water and drown a bit. haha
but yea, it was quite and experience and i still have one packet left. eh, didn’t really work that well though. perhaps next time?:/