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being in college and not really knowing anyone here i feel like the only way i’m gonna make friends is if i take a language class. -,- there i’m forced to talk to people and not shrink and blend in with the wall like a wallflower :/

i wanna make friends and i try to step out of my comfort zone to talk to people, i just feel like i’m too damn awkward and shy and a bit uninteresting to keep up a conversation let alone an aquaintanceship with someone new at this point.  damn my shy and awkward ways! >____<

like there are guys i’d want to talk to and possibly get to know better [[and maybe flirt w lol]] but no bueno…

when lady gaga was first starting out she had a “lie” or mantra like, “i’m a successsful pop star” and she said that she kept saying to herself and she said overtime if you kept believing the lie, one day it’ll come true. and i’m thinking perhaps i should make one up myself. and yea, there is some truth to this idea but idk, maybe tiime will just tell if this will really work for me :/

lets find out i guess! :]

ok, so maybe i’m getting a little bit lonely what with all the couples i’ve been seeing lately and it being teh holiday season.

but i’m sure i’ll stay ever viligent and just enjoy my holidays with my girls and family :] besides, even if i had a boyfriend right now, he’d probably be hanging out w them anyways cuz i know im gonna wanna spend sometime w friends and fam! [[there’s enough of me for everybody but i gotta get around! lol ok, maybe that sounded a bit whore-ish lol]]

eh, the feelings of loneliness are only fleeting anyways. and with my attention span sometimes, it’s just an errant thought then i’m off to the next thing on my mind :]

to the search! >:D