i found this old post of mine from a long time ago of a convo between me and my cousin yvanna about cookie crisp
me: man i love cookie crisp! whenever i eat it i feel like i need a tiny mug of milk [[or in my case soymilk]] to dunk them in. i mean i feel like a fricking giant whenever i eat them!
hey! you know what we should do? [[talking to my cousin yvanna]] i should get that ziplock bag full of ice cream or something with the funnel at the end and put little dots of ice cream on the cookie crisps and make tiny ice cream sandwiches!
o man! we should get a lot of mini foods one night and just pretend we’re giants! lol “bring me the loaf of bread made of children’s bones!” lmao
i guess that’s a good thing. i mean, for about three years i’ve had to deal with you as one of my demons. always feeling so torn but never really pining for you. i always thought, “what if” and mad that that potential realationship, platonic or not, was completely ruined.
i knew i saw it coming from how we would act but i didn’t think a silent period of 3 years would be necessary. [[okay, even if i enforced it but whatever]]
but anyways, talking to you now, i’m not like that girl three years ago who was so totally sprung over you that i lose sight of my pride. but sometimes i still think that we could’ve had it all. :/
you know that scene in this episode where the stupid hot intern gets carly and sam lemonade but it’s in a ziploc bag and freddie is all, “wtf? lemonade in a bag??”
being filipino and seeing this all the time in the philippines, i saw nothing wrong with this. i just thought he might’ve bought it in little manila [[do they have that in seattle??]] hey, for we know, it could’ve been made out of calimansi!
too bad it was used to kill freddie’s computer :/ lol
man, the last time i heard this song was my senior year at prom and it was the last song of the night.
i remember being on the dance floor with my then boyfriend aj and having all these other couples slow dancing around us. and i remember looking into his eyes and for some reason taking this song seriously.
i mean, think about it; it was our senior year, pretty much everybody there at prom was gonna graduate and be scattered about. i didn’t know if i was still gonna be friends with the same people or if aj and i were still gonna be together during/after college.
and plus, theres life you know? we don’t know if any of us were gonna drive home from prom and get into an accident. [[yes, morbid/over dramatic but it could happen! [[it didn’t. to my knowledge anyhoo]]]]
now things are different.
it’s three years later. i’m not that much in contact with all my high school friends. i have a small group of girls that i hang out with and aj and i are no longer boyfriend and girlfriend.
with that last one, i feel like the meaning of this song has changed since aj and i broke up.
we still see each other and hang out. i guess honestly, there are just sometimes where i just can’t let him go despite his talent to get under my skin and irritate me every now and then.but i had been with him for 5 years.
yes, i know i’m probably being weak by not letting him go but it’s scary. i feel like if he and i were to dance to this song again, it’d be like the final dance. because that’s how this song makes me feel.
what if he really/finally gets into the navy and he sails away and something happens to him? would i be with him again by then or would we still be single?
if i had to grant him one last dance it’d be this song.
somehow i feel like this semester is gonna be a semester full of guys. with flirting and talking and blah blah blah.
i have 3 classes and in each one of them has a guy i’ve got my eye on. and i still have another class that starts in march! who knows! maybe i’ll find a 4th guy to be my new piece of eye candy. haha
it’s also kinda odd, i’ve noticed that i’ve caught “yellow fever” or that i’ve been hit by some “asian persuasian” lol [[do these not sound cheesy or what??]]. usually i’ll have crushes on white guys here at school [[since theres an abundance of them here]] and i’ll have the occasional asian crush [[but he’s usually in asia somewhere =____=;]] but now, i’m just noticing more and more cute asian guys!
this semester is gonna be preettttyyy interesting it seems x]
i remember reading an old post from the clothes horse that talked about the paradox of blogging. like how someone is able to say things online that they wouldn’t normally say in front of other people [[hmm kinda reminded myself of cyber bullying right there…]]
but anyways, i always feel like whenever i blog i’d be like a diary or journal entry to me; some place where i can confide my inner most thoughts and feelings. but then sometimes i remember that there are still people out there who read it….and some of them happen to be people i know. it’s not necessarily a bad thing, but sometimes one has to be careful with what they say.
sometimes i feel like there are just things that i just can’t talk about in a blog entry. like i should save it for my long neglected journal and just keep it for myself and ponder about it alone in my room.
though i normally don’t carry my journal around with me and jot down what comes to mind. [[geh, we’ve been spoiled by technology -,-]] and it takes longer to write things versus just typing. i mean, people can type and text almost at the speed of sound its crazy right??
and i know i keep saying that i’ll make more of an effort to write in my journal and you know what? maybe i should.
i am seriously excited for the upcoming future this year.
the next 6 months i’d have to say looks preeeetty promising :]
in june my cousin and her husband and their new baby are flying home from hawaii to see her brother graduate
i’m excited for what’s gonna happen when i’m done with school what with me having an aerobics and hip hop class. [[i’ve totally convinced myself i’m gonna be a lean mean dancin machine at the end of the semester >:] ]]
i’m turning 21 this year! :D [[which doesn’t mean i’m gonna get wasted on my birthday. i’m just excited for this mile stone :] ]]
and this weekend i’m going to san jose! :D [[not really sure what’s over there, but adventure awaits i’m sure :D ]]
yup, this first half of the year is lookin prettty good so far :] let’s just hope nothing gets fucked up on the way there…