let me know that i’m as interesting as you think i am. that we can hang out and talk about things without either of us getting bored or me awkward turtling.
i wanna know if things get better from here and hanging out with me is so worth the wait like i hope it’ll be. would you just be hanging out w me because of obligation? or do you really?
maybe you’re not a talkative one on one kinda guy, and that’s fine. you’ve got your own stuff and i’ve got mine. no big deal. i’d just like a text or an IM from you first every once and a while to know that you want to talk to me and that you’re thinking about me. i don’t want to be the only one striking up a conversation here lookin like a desperate or crazy/clingy girl. bc that’s not who i am.
maybe i’ve already gotten too attached to you and let myself like you too much [[damn kiss…]]. it’s too early for that. i don’t wanna jump into any labels or anything i just wanna enjoy whats going on now. and hopefully when we do see each other again, it’ll go as good as last saturday. hopefully…
or maybe i’m just worried about successfully finding someone i like. the whole vulnerabilty and mystery of how much i’d like them. i’m wary of whom i open up to even tho sometimes i open up whether i like it or not :/
sometiems i wish it’d be jsut like in movies or whatever and have some guy come up to me and be like “hey, _____________something charming/funny_______blah blah blah____” and we’d liek each other and really connect or some shit like that but obviously life is not a movie
blogged that about 4 months ago and i’m starting to disagree with the last thing that i said. because what i had described kinda came true :] and it is AWESOME! >:D.
thanks :] im glad we met and you decided to talk to me :D
sure hes a year younger than me and hes not the typical guy that id go for; but i like him :]
he’s really nice and funny. has great taste in music and confident but not cocky [[which i love since the last guy i liked was like that and kinda pissed me off…]] and he can get me to talk and come out of my shell :]
i havent known him for very long but we’ve been talking a lot and he has told me [[more or less]] that he likes me too. though we havent really straight out said it to one another, its kinda obvious lol
im happy :] im happy that i “still got it” and my awkwardness hasnt scared him away either. i guess its bc he doesnt really let me get shy and he makes me laugh :]
okay, this guy is starting to sound and seem a little bit more cooler everytime i talk to him.
i still don’t know much about him and even though we exchanged numbers and stuff but i guess i’m just going with it.
i’m thinking he likes me and thinks i’m cute even though we’ve never really met in person [[that i know of. we went to high school together]] and he said he wanted to add me as a friend on fb [[which is where we met]] bc i kept popping up on his friends’ pages…but we only have two mutual friends…. lol
so far we’re kind of hitting it off. IMing on fb and texting each other every now and then. we mostly talk about little stuff that you’d normally talk about when you first meet people. tv shows, hobbies, interests, etc.
now we’re still talking about food [[bc i find that an easy topic for everybody]] and now music. i still get a bit anxious when meeting new ppl but hopefully being thrust into college and forcing myself to talk to ppl thatll change :]
got sick last night from i guess lack of rest or a 24hr bug [[my mom and i are still speculating]] and i stayed home from school today to rest up.
my mom is even making me my favorite kind of chicken noodle soup and it smells amazing. i feel pretty lucky and happy when she makes stuff like that for me when i’m sick :] esp since i luuuuurve vermicelli noodles :9
for some strange reason i’ve been feeling really tired this week :/
perhaps it could be from lack of sugar [[since i cut out sweet tea a couple of weeks ago]] or i’ve been trying harder in my classes or maybe i should start taking iron pills again. [[it’s probably that]]
everytime i come home i feel so sleepy. i’ve been getting in my 8~ hours of sleep but whenever i step through my front door, put down my stuff and change into house clothes, i just wanna hit the hay.
orrrr, maybe i’m just still stuck in gloomy winter mood and the transition to spring is making things a little loopy for me. idk
though that iron supplement is starting to sound like a better cure for whats ailing me. eh, we’ll see i guess :]
i’ve had bangs since ehhh college started about three years ago now.
up until then i’ve always had long shaggy or whispy bangs to hide behind in high school but i like being able to see without my hair getting in the way.
though i still feel a bit out of sorts after i get them cut bc i’m so used to being under that small curtain of hair and hiding a little bit behind it.
but for some reason i like to see how it grows out. the gradual change and everything.
back when i used to go to the family salon that i’ve been patroning for as long as i can remember, i usually was just satisfied with my cut but for some strange reason, whenever it would grow out, it would turn out to be pretty awesome!
idk how she did it, or if that was her intention or if it’s just a basic hair cutting thing, but i always ended up liking how it grew out to be :]
i guess that insecure tween is still in here with me [[i have a feeling no one’s inner tween ever really goes away]] despite the amount of courage i’ve collected throughout the years. or perhaps its the control freak in me that spazes out on me just the tiniest bit whenever change happens. eh, who knows?