it’s weird. whenever i wanna try and think of something or someone else or just nothing at all when i’m trying to listen to music, aj keeps popping into my head.
like if a song pops up, it makes me think how this fits with me and aj now and how i feel about him now. it doesn’t usually happen that often.
and usually i attach a song to a person or a relationship or an event but somehow, it changes and it seems better suited for something else.
i’m not the kind of person who picks the perfect song for something [[i love people who can do this]] that that song just sticks to whatever is happening. that specific thing. the songs i pick end up evolving and rolling with me and my life when i’d rather they just stay in some kind of box in my mind along with whatever memories i’ve tied it to. because when they move and change, i feel like memories and feelings overlap. especially when it comes to past relationships and crushes and what not.
for example, the song “the way i am”-ingrid michaelson. let’s say i associate that with a guy and they said that it reminded them of me and vice versa. then i end up attaching that song to them. that’s their song for when i want to think of them.
now lets say that after the thing with that guy ends and another guy enters my life, i wouldn’t want to play that song for them or them for me because to me, that song isn’t “theirs”. you know what i mean?
i don’t wanna overlap relationship/feelings songs with different people. [[yea, that made no sense. lol]] even if that certain song is better suited for what’s happening now.
hahaha i have no idea if any of you guys know what i’m talking about but yea… ahaha i just realized how weird/confusing this must all sound but that’s just how i feel and i don’t really know if whoever is reading this understands or does the same thing. but if someone out there does, then i’m glad :]