you texted me about an hour ago asking why i deleted you as a friend from facebook. i actually have a lot of different answers i’d like to give you ranging from “FUCK YOU I DON’T OWE YOU SHIIIIT” to just plain ol ignoring you to give you a taste of your own medicine.
parts of me as well as my friends and family would probably be voting for the “fuck you” response but i don’t know. i do want to tell you off so badly. get the things off my chest that i’ve been meaning to say but couldn’t because i was too timid and true, i could just tell you right now to fuck off but there are more things i wanna say besides throwing curse words and insults at you. [[though you undoubtedly deserve it]]
g, i deleted you because i don’t think we were really friends for a long time. in the beginning when we first started talking i thought, yea, sure, we were friends. you were nice to me, you showed me good music and joked around with me and you always got back to me whenever i texted or IMed you. but all of those things changed.
i felt like you started to ignore me. i felt neglected and disregarded or just straight up blown off when you wouldn’t get back to me whenever we’d talk. [[you know it doesn’t hurt to tell me that you’re busy or “brb” instead of leaving me hanging there for an hour or all dayyy]] hell, you’d sign off midconversation online and i never hear a reason why or an apology. [[cuz hellooo,that’s considered rude to normal people]]
i wasn’t asking for all your attention or time, all i was asking for was common courtesy.
and you know what? i never said anything about it. about you just ignoring me, blowing me off and how i felt used the last couple of weeks that we’ve been hanging out. i’ve always been nice and sure, i’m a bit sarcastic, but if you can’t handle my low grade sarcasm and you call me mean for acting that way, then you need to look in the mirror and rethink again who’s the mean one.
but anyways, i decided to end this “friendship” for a couple of reasons. you really weren’t acting like a friend to me. i felt like it was a one way thing with me being the friend. i gave and i gave and got nothing back and now that you’ve obviously decided to move on, i don’t see any more reason to keep on giving my friendship to you.
i tried g. i tried believing and naively hoping that you’d change and that you’d notice my absence when i stopped talking to you. apparently you didn’t. i told you g, i told you the reasons why i stopped. i said i figured that if you really did want to talk to me, you would but unfortunately it seemed like the only time you did was when you wanted something from me.
so after a while it seemed to me that you just didn’t really want to get to know me anymore. sure, those little chit chats before we parted ways whenever we’d hang out were nice i guess, but i never heard anything else from you afterwards.
we also decided to not plan hang outs anymore since our schedules always conflicted so who was i to plan something when i knew it’d probably wouldn’t even go through?
i don’t know. i think maybe if i had said something in the beginning things would’ve been different. but really? if i had really told you what had made me upset all those times, how would i even know that you wouldn’t make fun of me? call me a cry baby and make me sound like a loser? then start talking to me less and less and only contact me when you want something and don’t even notice when i’m upset even though it’s painfully obvious sometimes.
you told me that we were friends g, but what kind of friend does that?
and since it took you this long to figure out how long i’ve deleted you and that i haven’t got a follow up text or anything prompting my answer to you, apparently my friendship doesn’t mean much to you and you know what? that’s fine.
how can i miss a friendship when there wasn’t really one to begin with?
p.s. if you don’t understand some of these words, get a dictionary or read some damn books you dumb fuck >:|