No worries :) If it helps, i think about how after every hardship, i'm always left feeling that it wasn't so bad after all. That all things happen for a reason and after every outcome, nothing but a stronger person comes out of it as long as you keep positive. Stay strong!
thank you anon. that actually does help :] and i’m sure i’ll come out a better/stronger person after this but for now, i’m mad as hell and i hate it :(