June 2012
May 2012
"can you all just stay?"
It feels like a lot of people are leaving lately. All going in and out at different times (which is better than all at once). And I know that the title of this entry is a selfish question to ask and I never have asked it and I never will.
As much as I want everyone to just stay put, who am I to ask them to stay? And sure, I know a couple will probably try, but I know it’s wrong.
I miss aj horribly and as much as I would’ve loved to tell him so stay, I cant. He needs to do what needs to be done and I need to stop being a baby and suck it up.
Then my mom is gone for the Philippines for another 2.5 weeks and i miss her too. I would’ve loved to go with her but I can’t. And obviously I can’t ask her to stay.
One of my best friends is leaving at the end of the summer and it sucks cuz I know I wont have her to talk to. (even though I have other wonderful girls to talk to) it just sucks feeling like everyone is leaving. Coming and going when I just want everyone to stay put.
What a selfish thing to ask. To ask someone to please stay even when you know they need to leave and do whatever they need to do.
Maybe I’m just feeling lonely and tired? It is after midnight and usually those feelings pop up when you should be sleeping.
Though I’m glad I’m closer to everybody. Not all the way up north with my aunt and uncle. (gas is a killer -,-)
And I’m pretty glad that my older cousin is coming back to San Diego pretty soon and for quite a long time too :) so that’s good right?
